"Vocations which we wanted to pursue, but didn't, bleed, like colors, on the whole of our existence."
Honore de Balzac
Early 19th century French novelist
This suggests to me that Monsieur Balzac yearned to be something other than a writer.
If so, ironic in that there are many non writers yearning to write.
Memo to all just starting your career:
Sooner than you think you will "be" whatever you "do.
Choose your career path carefully.